in a state of.....blurless?

went to zheng yang hse 4 barbeque to celebrate his passing of his driving 2dae....attendance consisted of anna,angeline,cheryl,yq,royce,cisso,jasson,karrine,tze wen, zheng yang and mi of course!lplayed e game 7 wif dem and sibei suay....or izit my mind nt wif mi...i dunno la but tio 3 times in a row and haf to 1 shot 3 cups of vodka mixed....heng nt pure otherwise i sure drunk(was drinking quite abit of pure baileys b4 dat).....was abit blur after e 3rd cup...went 4 a swim in zheng yang's swimming pool to freshen up......after quite awhile...e guys and anna joined mi in e pool while e rest went hm...during dat time wif dem...anna said dat e guy cindy liked may stead wif her...dunno hw i felt since i was still abit drunk or wadsoever....but reminds mi of e song 最愛還是你 and 你好就好....zheng yang sent us hm in his mother's LEXUS after dat and i tot bout it awhile....i shld wish her e best no matter wad happens...no use clingning on with false hope...trying to convince myself after wishing her e best....maybe i'm still drunk or wad but i wont take it back....