oh well, it's been sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long time since i blog something like that... like it was last year izzit??? ah boo birthday... lol...
hahaha... ah i'm in school right now listening to some stuff which i didn't really want to... i'm probably being lazy as i had hard time waking up.... YWANZZZZ.... ah... probably brothers are having some exam huh right???? chinese new year's coming... valentine day's coming... haha... whats with that... especially V day... probably it's just another day where couple get together like everyday and guys JIO gals saying "would you be my valentine". ..it's such a pain to see such things maybe when you don't really have any gals/guys around... your heart's going down like lightning strike from the sky.... speedy and scary... not knowing when it will happen again....
friends comes around and goes around.... coming to you leaving from you.... OR izzit me who is running away from people, hiding away from those faces... i wonder who would know me... just like weather that is unpredictable, changing every second...i'm not someone who wants or should i say wouldn't stands out in the crowd... probably just another... another... webby which people scroll and move on because it's not appealing anyway... i couldn't really relate myself to others actually because thats just me... i really envy those who are socially incline... haha... it's doesn't really matter to me anyway...
schools ending... i love it... it's nice being alone but also you get to feel the pain... you know... the pain... and to cure was that small metal rectangular box that produces sound... it's so much of relieve that someone came up with something that sings to you non-stop... what i believe now was that what you gave in won't REALLY be the results that you get SOMETIMES.... i thought sometimes it maybe a very a unreasonable believe but oh well... nevertheless, it's good that ppl like my bro kokkok doing quite well with his galfrz... as someone who is outside thier world, i could really feel that they are deep... so deep that nothing's gonna break them apart... right???? KOKKOK!!!! haha...
and i guess that i had done somethings really wrong... it's like OMG... what to do... what i have said i can't take back... but probably yeah... i wouldn't say anything more... love is out of the topic... i'm too afraid if i were to start talking agian and more mistakes would appear like nobody business... i don't know what to do... it's like none better then guys on street playing gals yeah??? it's shit stuff actaully... but we can't really deny that in live there is so much things that we do and we can't amend it... it's really sad when it's like this.... but well we learn as we go along so maybe we will get use to hurting people and saying sorry.... thats life i guess...
one more issue would being superficial... was i wrong or something but things aren't the same when we were in poly... i still like it secondary school life where there is a clear cut thing of i like you i hate you thingy ( i don't literally mean this way but u catch?) which i really like a lot... we tell each other weakness and stuff like that and we get use to it or try to tell the person to change or something... maybe that secondary school live... just be happy with each other and not talking about them behind thier back or wad so ever shit... it's really saddening and tiring to see such things start to surface and you can't really do something about and you keep on thinking??? and whats the use of thinking... so hack care and live your life and after that, its where you start to get lonely because of this... but well it's already like i don't really care stage so what more can i say...
to think about it... being a good guy or nice guy is really hard.... haha... you tend to drive yourself to the light but it's the darkness which is stopping you from going... so what??? you stuck there like what am i suppose to do kinda of feeling... you know like what spiderman III if you watch the trailer... sometimes super hero need some help too... haha... yeah thats the dilemma you face... so again hack care and be yourself thing again.... LOL... so everything is being yourself in the end because not everyone will hate u and not everyone would like you???? like a phrase i saw
“Keep true, never be ashamed of doing right; decide on what you think is right and stick to it.” – George Eliot
right oh so many phrase i wanna share now... haha.... like this
“Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain. It’s not something you learn in school. But if you haven’t learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven’t learned anything” – Muhammad Ali
“Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle; love is a war; love is a growing-up” – James Baldwin
and lastly "I am not interested in the truth outside me. What is important to me is the truth in me." Stanislavsky.
